Yeah, I sell nudes.
You’re wasting your breath if you think I care what you think because I wouldn’t be uploading X rated content if I did, believe me.
I used to visualise dancers (strippers, if you will) to be slutty, dirty and promiscuous – I’d imagine they’d sleep around and have zero self-respect for themselves and would basically do whatever, for anybody for any sum of money.
So, when I first heard about selling content online, I immediately put it in to the same category as dancing.
And boy, was I wrong.
Listen, I’m going to cut the bullshit, alright – I went through an extremely tough time where I had no other choice but to find alternative ways to make money and fast, so I thought about it – “Do I really care if someone sees me naked?” And, at this point in life, the answer was of course, no. I didn’t give a flying fuck, I just needed money – I had shit to sort.
Luckily, I knew a few people in the industry who could give me some pointers and away I went.
I signed up to a webcamming website, a very large and mainstream website to advertise photographs, videos and webcamming work and I was also recommended an app where you keep 100% of your earnings, unlike other sites.
On my first night of camming (and very much by myself), I dolled myself up, necked a glass of wine, put on my best lingerie, fired up my laptop and webcam, and waited for someone to want me.
Two minutes of waiting felt like an hour – the cash register alert sounded and I was notified that User xxxx wanted to take me in to a private chatroom… nervous and excited, I accepted.
I couldn’t see him, but he could see me and he spoke to me just like anybody else would…
“Wait, he doesn’t want to see me naked?”
The buzz was like nothing I’d ever felt before.
Of course, everybody differs – some people want company, others want more, but I can proudly say that my first night was a success; in just over an hour I’d made £200 and I just knew there was no going back after this – it was too easy.
And I definitely didn’t have sex with anybody, like when I naively imagined women in this industry would…
I’d have to work 3 or 4 long days to get this amount of money, plus finding childcare.
It’s a no brainer.
From just uploading pictures and videos on to an app alone, I made £800 on my best week and I wasn’t about to stop there either.
Again, no physical contact with anybody.
Recently, I went on to make an OnlyFans account, an account where users pay a small monthly subscription to see anything from my face to X rated content and so far, it’s enjoyable, but the difference this time is that I went public with it, so I exposed my ‘job’ to people who knew me – so, technically, the people who’d constantly asked me to go on dates with them could quite literally have me if they wanted to, just not in person.
I’m fulfilling a fantasy; nothing more, nothing less – which is fine.
But, what is not fine, is people assuming you’re ‘easy’ and have no self-respect because, actually, you couldn’t be further from the truth.
“Why?”, you ask?
Well, for one, I definitely know I don’t have sex on a regular basis, but also, I have far more respect for myself because I won’t just freely hand myself over to anybody, and, this may sound a little cut-throat, but you need to earn my time and attention, just like everybody else – nobody gets a freebie anymore and you have to be pretty special to do so.
And before you ask, no, I don’t think that sounds unfair because I’ve had a lot of my time wasted before now. I’ve given my body to people who don’t deserve it and gained nothing from it in return.
Get with the times, people; you need to be ruthless because everybody is disposable, even you.
It’s a fact.
Even women will have a pop and call you a slag – but listen, love, I’d rather be paid for my nudes than send them to someone off Tinder for free, where they’e only going to end up in a group chat anyway.
DO THE MATH.
The confidence boost is nice, feeling sexy is nice, being told you’re beautiful every day is nice – I’m not hurting anybody, nor am I putting myself at risk or danger of anything and I enjoy it.
“Do something you love and you’ll never work a day in your life”
Of course, there is a stigma attached to this kind of work, most men are intimidated by it but I’ve learned not to care.
I need me to be happy, I need nobody elses approval and once you stop giving a fuck, life gets better and fast.
And NEWSFLASH – I’ve not had sex with anybody who’s paid me for my content, I wouldn’t wish to, yet I would never judge anybody for making that choice because we all have different circumstances.
Working in this industry has really opened my eyes to just how small minded the world can be, because I know that you can still flaunt what you have, bear all for all to see and still be a decent human being.
I know because I am one.
The Unicorn in Black